The last five Halloweens have had various shades of grief in them.  This time of year has always dealt me a lot of loss. Whether that is the loss of a person or relationship, something about mid-September through Halloween I'm always kind of on edge. And yet this year - I am doing better than the last five. I recap Leia's first Halloween, which coincided with Noel's cancer diagnosis and surgery to Leia's second Halloween, where we had to charter a private jet to fly us from Indiana to California because Noel couldn't fly on a commercial airline because of how sick she was. To then discuss the first Halloween without Noel. My conclusion in all of this: seek joy, embrace joy, and allow myself to feel joyful instead of angry or victimized. So that is my intention going into this Halloween.