(Full Notes)Saturday, June 13, 2020I really think there’s something to learning attitudes and behaviors from parents in more subtle ways than we sometimes imagine. I would like to understand the mechanics of this. Why not try to describe this?  Surely someone has already.Tuesday, June 16, 2020?I've been reading from 'Teachings of the Prophet Joseph Smith'.  I don't know that I've read more lucid speech, more clear and simple and to the point, and on-target.  Very inspiring, not to mention informative.So the thing with learning from our parents (or caregivers), is that we learn from them how to deal emotionally, or however you want to say it.  We learn from them, not because they deliberately teach us, but because we sense their emotional needs, their emotional pressures.  They in effect emotionally pressure us, despite all efforts, to have the issues they have.  I'm not sure how we can avoid that besides actually fixing ourselves first.  And how can we fix everything about ourselves before having any kids?  Be like Abraham and be 100 when you have your first child?  I just think we are going to pass on stuff, like it or not, and we just have to do our best, period.  We love our kids and try to repent ourselves all the time and admit our faults as we discover them and just do our best, and our kids will be imperfect too.  Thus we all have things to struggle with our whole lives - gives us character and makes us strong.  That's just what I think, that's how I see it.  I don't know that there's anything we can deliberately do to keep from passing stuff on to our kids except perfect ourselves as best we can.  And maybe after that don't worry about it.  Like both don't try to do something deliberate to not pass stuff on, and don't despair and obsess over it and fault yourself for your kids' faults.  But maybe be aware that your issues will get passed on, and any pride or laziness on your part will exacerbate things, and surely unrepented sin will make you accountable for your childrens' sins in a way that you wouldn't be if you were trying honestly.  That's how I'm seeing it.How does that pressure from our parents work?  Alice Miller talked about this. Alright, so what am I going to talk about in my podcast?  Need something.  But that is a true principle that I just mentioned.  Not that I said it all right, necessarily.  But there is emotional pressure that children are sensitive to, in different ways and perhaps to different degrees, that they respond to and thus learn how to think and act and feel.  You never get away from the light of Christ, though, so untruthfulness always feels not quite right and breeds self-deception.  Or requires it.  Or is it. So for me, for us here, self-deception is the great insight.  Self-deception as a necessity, when we go against the light.  And the fact that the light is stable.  It is constant.  It is forever there, unchanging, independent of us, or of our notions.  I don't understand the light of Christ fully.  But I do think it's clear from the scriptures that it permeates all things, and that you can't get away from it, and that it comes from God.  It dictates how we should act, and when we act contrariwise we enter a false world.  How does it work being partly in a false world and partly in a true one?  I don't know.  We speak of having the Spirit of the Lord or not, and perhaps that's true.  I don't know.  Either we flip often between the two, or there's some kind of mix.  But it does seem a little like it's one or the other, like not having the Spirit goes along with being prideful and comparative and everything else.  But I'll tell you I either flip a lot or there's some other mix. Joseph Smith's mother said there are two spirits operating upon you, a good and a bad.  Tell me more about those spirits, I pray.  They're people, right?  Good and ba