See, the hardest thing for me was leaving  the life. I still love the life. And we were treated like movie stars  with muscle. We had it all, just for the asking. Our wives, mothers,  kids, everybody rode along. I had paper bags filled with jewellery stashed  in the kitchen. I had a sugar bowl full of coke next to the bed.  Anything I wanted was a phone call away. Free cars. The keys to a dozen  hideout flats all over the city. I'd bet twenty, thirty grand over a  weekend and then I'd either blow the winnings in a week or go to the  sharks to pay back the bookies. Didn't matter. It didn't mean anything.  When I was broke I would go out and rob some more. We ran everything. We  paid off cops. We paid off lawyers. We paid off judges. Everybody had  their hands out. Everything was for the taking. And now it's all over.  And that's the hardest part. Today, everything is different. There's no  action. I have to wait around like everyone else. Can't even get decent  food. Right after I got here I ordered some spaghetti with marinara  sauce and I got egg noodles and ketchup. I'm an average nobody. I get to  live the rest of my life like a schnook.