Sons go through stuff... It's normal. If something goes wrong, we assume we're wrong somehow and experience "shame." Deaths and resurrections are normal pathways for God to reveal His glory in His sons. Not pleasant, but afflictions will lead you to your purpose if you let them/Him. Jesus "endured" the cross for the joy set before him and despised the shame of it all. Purpose is what pulls us through disease, discouragement, and difficulty.