Sometimes assigning words or values to emotion detracts from their genuineness. Try just mediating and enjoy the feeling of Joy.

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Joy is often accompanied with realizing the blessings of your life. 

 “Sorrow prepares you for joy. It violently sweeps everything out of your house, so that new joy can find space to enter. It shakes the yellow leaves from the bough of your heart, so that fresh, green leaves can grow in their place. It pulls up the rotten roots, so that new roots hidden beneath have room to grow. Whatever sorrow shakes from your heart, far better things will take their place.”