In Loving Memory of Martina Aviles. On January 3rd I lost my mother and I dedicate this episode to her. To state I miss her is an understatement. I don’t know how to feel. There’s an emptiness and numbness. As you get older, many expect it to be easy to lose a parent because you have had many years and it’s expected. It’s not easy. Especially when the parent is loving and caring.