Whitney Jablonski, CRNA lost her daughter, Colby, less than two days after she was born in March, 2019.Listen to this honest conversation about Whitney's grieving journey and how Whitney is trying to help other families in honor of her daughter.Whitney and Amy discuss the following in this episode:Mother's intuition in the 1st trimesterSelf advocating to see maternal fetal medicine (MFM) before 20 weeksTrisomy 18Fetal cardiac workupHow are you the same person prior to this situation?  How do you get out of bed everyday and go back to the routine of being a mother?Returning to work in the same facility where you lost your babyWorking in the OB department and taking callMaternity leave - Is six weeks enough?Funeral and the need for bereavement daysThe emotions felt when your milk comes inHow do you respond to peoples' comments (that are upbeat) about your pregnancy when you know your baby will not survive?Anticipatory griefWorried about decreased fetal movement, your baby dying, and wanting the obstetrician to check for a heartbeat while wondering if this is going to be your baby's last day aliveGrieving the life you had as well as your babyFeeling less organizedWanting to move into a new homeGetting pregnant after loss, grieving, and COVID-19How COVID-19 impacted the grieving process and next pregnancyWhat journaling revealedCaring for yourself so you can care for your patientsBiggest trigger at work, talking to the hospital chaplainWishing for more self care and feeling like a different personSufficient Grace Ministries in the Toledo, OH areaNew Virtual Support Group for Healthcare Providers grieving after pregnancy and infant loss Virtual Support Group for Healthcare Providers after pregnancy and infant loss2nd Monday of every monthLed by Amy Pelkey, CRNA and Whitney Jablonski, CRNAVia Zoom - get the link and updates hereThis is for female, licensed healthcare providers grieving after pregnancy or infant loss Want a free eBook and receive a weekly email from Pause to Remember? Click here.  Where to find Pause to RememberWebsiteInstagramFacebook  Support Pause to Remember  - "Buy a Latte"Want to donate to help support this podcast, the virtual support group, and other resources that are offered for free?  Click here.  OtherTalk to Amy Pelkey - her schedule is hereContact Amy Pelkey here.www.AmyPelkey.comMusic credit: Fractal of Light, by Chris Haugen