Jennifer’s workshop “Art of Desire”4:15 The meaning frames that humans create to justify or explain their circumstances6:45 It is necessary to integrate your god-given sexuality8:00 “False tradition” says that sexuality is a necessary evil8:35 Mormon theology for sexuality9:10 Ways to be evil10:15 Sexuality and goodness11:15 Adjusting to marriage14:00 Steps to cultivating god-given desire14:30 we run our own sexuality, it doesn’t run us16:45 What happens when you’re afraid of your sexuality (repression or indulgence)18:15 Sexual contract marriage is a chosen relationship; to know and be known20:45 Marriage pushes your development21:30 What can my marriage teach me?22:15 “Ticks and moles”23:10 You live in the environment that you create23:45 We self deceive and collude in not dealing with troubles (polite marriage vs intimate marriage)24:15 Measuring quality of marriage25:30 Can there be room for the best of both partners? We often want our own limitations to prevail while expecting our spouses’ limitations to disappear26:00 Victim mentality (guilt your spouse into submission) It may look like there’s peace, but there will be underlying anger and resentment.27:00 Unrealistic fantasy of “oneness”28:00 Using the validation of others to sustain your own sense of self28:50 “In the name of Love, we can sometimes suck the lives out of our spouses” (validate me, reinforce me)29:45 Choose to love someone, limitations and all30:00 Breaking the bond of using someone else for your own validation31:40 Even if your partner says all the right words, it won’t land anywhere if you don’t feel it in your heart32:30 Taking accountability for your own life33:15 “False tradition” if women want to develop vs nurture, then they are selfish (we’ve come to earth to develop and create)34:30 Create a sense of self34:50 Self deception is Satan’s path35:20 Taking responsibility for your own emotions37:25 Don’t try to manage your partner in order to manage yourself. Trying to control things we have no control over, like our spouses, distracts us from focusing on what we CAN control, like ourselves38:45 What are my blind spots that I have yet to confront?39:00 One of the kindest things you can do for your partner is to manage yourself (anxiety is infectious). This allows them to in turn manage THEMSELVES40:20 Ask yourself “what am I pretending not to know about my role in these circumstances”41:00 Confronting yourself is a scary thing, especially in a sexual relationship42:00 Own your own desire and ask for what you want vs covert contracts42:45 Owning your desire exposes you to the possibility of rejection. This is true intimacy and true vulnerability43:20 “you’re not allowed to complain about not getting something you’ve never asked for”44:05 it’s easier to sit in an entitled resentment thinking “you owe me” instead of asking for what you want and risking not getting it.44:45 When we don’t take responsibility of our desires, we stunt the development of our marriages and of ourselves44:55 if you’re not getting what you want in your marriage - #1 have you asked for it? #2 are you doing your part to create the possibility of getting it?46:40 We’re good at thinking about all of the things we think we are owed, but not so good at confronting our part in he negative reality we are living in47:10 Make it easy for your partner to give you what you want48:25 The theology of Mormonism contains the architecture for creating amazing marriages49:15 you come to know God through behavior, not ideas. It’s the way you act in our marriage that is a reflection of how much you understand God.