Let's face it, being responsible is not easy. It requires a perseverance and fortitude that is an enigma to many. Even with a desire to grow, a focus on anything else besides yourself may mean the contented usefulness you crave will elude you. Absolute joy comes from the courage of facing oneself in all its forms. Loving to and from the depths of one's conscious soul is a practice. It's not a homework assignment that is a one-and-done for which you get graded on the virtue of your accomplishment. The practice itself is what makes it perfect. The peace you feel that buzzes in your skin is the reward. Focusing on your growth above all else opens up possibilities.