practicing not perferct playing my music - struggles to make it as an artist to make it hollywood

professionalsinger,podcaster , musician, entertainer, professional songwriter with BMI ,ASCAP, intellectual , indie artist, book author, actor, performer- podcasts are about serious to variety of topics, , Doing podcasts is a form of creative self expression and i must express myself as much as possible regardless of topic ,- I make music for money ,not for fun ,amateursim