you’ve achieved something. you’re proud. excited. It means a lot to you until you share it. some people clap, some nod, some barely react. uuuhm okay! so who gets to decide if it’s a big deal or not? you? them? him? her? the internet? the silence in the room? who who who the owl?? now what? should you second-guess it? do you keep on keeping on? do you tone it down or celebrate even louder? Is it a big deal… or is it not?