"I have to tell you that there were a couple of days where I was fixated on what was going wrong in my life. I was fixated on the disconnecting communication. I was fixated on what I was displeased with, what I was frustrated with and and to no surprise. I mean, that's what I was getting out of my days. I can be very hard on myself because I wanted the better, so I can be better for other people. And so a lot of the struggles that I go through is self-sabotage."