Action action action. He said if you love Him you obey Him. Deny yourself and follow Him with the little bit of revelation He has given to you, like the disciples that just followed Jesus without asking questions and asking for more and more. Its Christ in you, you have everything you need on the inside of you, yet a lot of christians still have their hand out. Ur probably struggling and disappointed because youre not feeling as blessed as you would hope to be. Youre still about you, you havent denied yourself and let go of your human understanding. If youre a Christian for what God can do for you instead of Him to make you more like Him, your self-life will always have a louder voice. The Truth doesnt change wether you believe in it or not. Step outside yourself and harvest lost souls, yet not one shall perish.